not sure why but I feel really anxious today. It has been a fun week with the kids out of school with Spring Break. I have had several days off and slept in and stayed up late. Sex almost every day. I should just be like totally chill and calm. It’s weird how anxiety hits us. I don’t know if the ending of Spring Break looming is causing it or that next week may be demanding or that opening my email is stressing me out. Maybe I should just open my email and spend two hours, knock it out, and be done with it. Then enjoy my last two days. Anxiety is definitely a real thing for me some days. I will be fine and then one day….Boom! I’ll probably hit essential oils tonight and see if I can knock it out. Help! I feel like I’m locked in a room closing in on me. I know it’s not but the air feels thin. Maybe I should go running. Endorphins usually help. Maybe a snack that I love. I can’t read because I can’t focus. A movie could work. But will I be able to enjoy it? No I can’t stop thinking of the looming week ahead. Why is this bothering me? I can take Monday off to. I could make it a light day. I can say no to whatever I want. Why do I feel trapped? It makes no sense to me. Why? Your smarter than anxiety. Outwit it. Your are fine, just ignore it. Please go away I don’t want you here in my happy place. This is my life, your not welcome here. Why do you violate my joy? Leave me alone! Anxiety I love myself more. I will be okay tomorrow. Everyone has a rough day it’s ok. Your human. Don’t tell me it’s ok you don’t understand. Just a day, it’s almost over. One day does not ruin a great week. One hour doesn’t ruin a day. Lunch was awesome today. Happy thoughts. I have sex, food, running, my favorite pillow, and jello.