Reflection 

The last 24 hours I have had some time to slow down and reflect upon where life is right now.  Can’t do a whole lot from a hospital bed and Nazi nurses that have told me they have been warned and have their eyes on me.  I can think of only two guilty parties for causing me this extra attention and I will have my revenge.  I am innocent after all.  So as to my ponderings, I first realized that I wasn’t very smart.  I should not have gone running in this severely cold weather.  I admit, I believe I can do all things.  I am double tough, invincible even, but yeah that just wasn’t very smart.  So once again I find myself in the hospital with pneumonia.  Praying for a miracle so I can leave and a trip to Costa Rica postponed for at least 6 months.  It is an irony how consequences follow our foolishness.  But I will go there someday.  Just depressingly disappointing to say the least.  On to better thoughts.  

When Keith and I first got engaged like all young couples in love ❤️ we had our dreams and goals and hopes.  I recognize the idealism of youth is often fantasy but a few things we seemed to get our arms around and they have been anchors to our life’s journey together.  One of the most important was that we knew life would change us.  Kids, careers, school, callings, it all impacts us, so we embraced the concept of change.  We set a goal that as the decades passed we would evolve with Time.  The first decade was schooling and all that goes with it.  A couple of children so being young parents and budding careers.  We had lots of energy and worked hard.  Bought our first condo while in school and our first home after.  The next decade came and we had a couple more kids, still had energy and worked hard, saved, invested, but definitely more of a transition to being a family and preparing for the future.  We had 4 young children and our lives evolved around them.  We worked hard and played hard.  It’s definitely a big transition going from being young parents with young children to a full on family with a kid in high school, jr high, and two in grade school.  You have to embrace it and pretend you have some control over life or it will swallow you.  Time can be unforgiving for the ill prepared.  At times that is all of us.

I turned 40 last year and as we are approaching the beginning of our third decade I have realized that we have actually been preparing for several years.  I guess that is the way of hopes and dreams in that we pursue them even unconsciously.  I think the transition this time is much more pronounced with the move to Idaho, our oldest leaving for a mission, Keith having a big exit in one of his business ventures and my career changes and new direction are all significant.  We are still very active but the energy sonetimes is exhausted.  I think we are better at sprints now than the marathons of our 20s and early 30s.  I wonder what other things Time will unveil in this next decade.  😇.  One of the kindest things my husband has ever said to me is how much he has loved every day’s version of me.  Now that is true love because I have not always had great days lol.  ❤

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